Music and Butterflies

((Warning! Please excuse my spelling and grammatical errors. I did not have time to go over this!)) 

The past 2 weeks haven't been the greatest. Stress, fatigue and tears have been constant company. Besides God, some amazing friends, my boyfriend and my mom, there are two things that have gotten me through these weeks…..music and butterflies.

“Through it all, though it all my eyes are on you. And through it all, through it all it is well…..So let go my soul and trust in Him, the waves and wind still know His name.”

This song has been on repeat in my head and on my phone. It is my song of complete and pure surrender. From smiling and singing at the top of my lungs with my coworkers, to on my knees with hands held high whispering it through the tears. This song has been a comfort and constant reminder that God must have His way and I must trust Him and say, “Lord, no matter what, it is well with my soul.” It hasn't been easy but God never promised it would be, He just promised He would take care of us and never leave. 

        Butterflies. I rarely ever see them here. If I do it’s by a flower or on a tree. I love butterflies, they're reserved and quiet yet their wings call out in beautiful colors as to say, “Look at the magnificence God has blessed me with!” They are silently radiant. Now that I’ve explained that I do not see them much, I have seen 6 in the past 4 days! Not by flowers, or on trees, but right by me! I’ve gotten one huge thing out of these sightings. Hope.

I recently wrote something to someone about finding beauty in the storm. I will be the first one to tell you that right now I’m in a storm in my life. So seeing the beauty during the storm is amazing and butterflies are full of it. Did you know that butterflies symbolize transformation? Probably. It’s pretty easy to see why it would stand for that….but did you also know that butterflies represent souls?  It is depicted as such in some ancient Christian tombs and many Christian artists have used this symbolism in pictures of Jesus holding a butterfly. So lets tie those two things together using one word shall we? FAITH. A butterfly goes through a huge transformation yet the whole time trusts its cocoon. Our soul goes through huge transformations repetitively and just like the butterfly we must trust God as our cocoon. To hold us and guide us and mold us into the creation He wants us to be. To help us to eat up as much of His word as possible before the transformation so we are equipped during it and to help us spread our wings and fly after the transformation. So next time you see a butterfly let it give you this hope. That it is possible for you to hang on during the storm and in the end you will fly higher than you ever could.

These two things have really spoken to me the past two weeks and I hope if someone else is out there struggling as well that they find comfort in these words. If you’re interested the song I quoted is called “It Is Well” by Bethel Music & Kristene DiMarco. If you’re suffering hear this prayer….

Dear God, I know I am not alone in this storm. I know you are there to comfort me and to help guide me. Let the lightning flash waves of your beauty into my soul and the thunder be filled with your voice commanding me to do your will. Help me to trust your every move and to let you mold me into the creation you want me to be. Help me to say that through it all it is well with my soul. Amen.